Is good...is good...

Let me tell you I'm feeling so much better about this slight change in point tracking. I don't feel so desperate after 6pm anymore!!! The scale hasn't moved much either way, though I'd like a loss I'm glad it isn't a gain! I'll keep you posted on the progress...

Now off to warm myself up! Oh and I might be getting a Sony A200 DSLR today or tomorrow. It's something I've been wanting and I never, ever, ever treat myself :)

Later...

Trying something new...

Yesterday I started going backwards...I'm journaling starting with the previous days dinner. I have been looking back thru my food journals, breakfast and lunch is a breeze as are the snacks through the day. Even when I have 10 points left for dinner I always seem to blow it from 5pm on! So in an effort to "fix what is broken" I'm going to start my day at the end of the day. The first 50 lbs I lost way back when where when I was on night shift and that's how I journaled. So we'll see what the effects of my experiment go!!! I jumped on the scale today and I'm down to 206.4!!! I'm seeing one-derland again!!! It's on the horizon :)

You want sprinkles on that?

Tonight as I was reading PioneerWomans blog about her ballet headshot (before I read of her brush with death afterwards) it got me to thinking about something the Nidge said to me a few weeks ago...

"Momma"
"Yes monkey"
"What's those?"
"What's what baby?"
"Those" as he points to my forehead...
"Oh, those...those are mommy's wrinkles"
"Why you have sprinkles mommy?" as he wrinkles his nose up to make his own sprinkles...
"Oh cuz momma's old and I got those from working too much" *wink*
"Momma?"
"Yes monkey"
"Read me story?"
"Yes monkey"

I live for these moments even when they do bring to light that I'm not getting any younger!

I think, no I know I'm SAD...

I was reading in another bloggers post that she thought she may have Seasonal Affect Disorder...and I came across this today

Health News

Health Tip: Understanding Seasonal Sadness

1/14/2009 12:00:00 AM

(HealthDay News) -- Seasonal affective disorder (SAD) is triggered when the seasons change, most often with the onset of winter and the corresponding decrease in sunlight.

The American Academy of Family Physicians lists these common symptoms of winter-onset seasonal affective disorder:

• Appetite changes, particularly a desire for sweets and starches.
• Gaining weight.
• Sleeping too much.
• Lack of energy and a feeling of fatigue.
• Feeling irritable, anxious and having problems concentrating.
• Not wanting to participate in social activities and a general lack of interest in things you once enjoyed.
• Increased concern about being rejected socially.

Treatments are available for SAD. Talk with your doctor if you have these symptoms.

Here's the link to it... http://www.everydayhealth.com/publicsite/news/view.aspx?id=622879&xid=nl_EverydayHealthWomensHealth_20090119

Now here's my take on it ;)

• Appetite changes, particularly a desire for sweets and starches.
  

Yep, bread and cookies...ugh :|

• Gaining weight.

Well, a few gains here and there, but basically maintaining where I don't want to be...

• Sleeping too much.

Now this one...Not so much. I'm up late looking at blogs and catching up on emails and the Nidge won't let me sleep past 8

• Lack of energy and a feeling of fatigue.

Yep, that'd be me...course I'm sure two bouts of the stomach flu haven't helped either

• Feeling irritable, anxious and having problems concentrating.

What's that? Finish the dishes before I clean the living room??? Cranky??? Who me??? LOL

• Not wanting to participate in social activities and a general lack of interest in things you once enjoyed.

I'm so here, I want to in my head, go out and be amongst people...but getting the body to get there is another. Of course the 2 feet of snow and bone chilling sub zero temps aren't helping that either.

• Increased concern about being rejected socially.

Yeah, this makes me think a little more. I have been withdrawing from my friends a bit. I go out here and there...but I always feel judged because I've made a career decision that's not all together "sane" and I've put on those pesky 40 lbs...I know they aren't, but I feel like I'm being judged...and I guess in a way I am BY MYSELF!!!

Just another thought for the day! Cheerio!

I don't wanna...

It's single digit here, with negative double digit windchills....I HATE COLD!!! I have "raynauds syndrome" and even when it's in the 90's my hands and feet freeze, turn white and sometimes purple so these temps don't make it any better.

Ok, now I've got my whine outta the way...here's my observation.

Everyone that's ever had a weight problem has said this to themselves in one form or another..."When I get skinny"

When I get skinny so and so will love me more
When I get skinny I can wear anything I want
When I get skinny I'll land the job I always wanted
When I get skinny I will magically change

PEOPLE...there isn't anything magic about a number on the scale and I just realized that today!!! Even when I was skinny I thought I was fat. At my lowest of 163 I still battled those 10 extra pounds the "charts" said I needed to lose so as not to be considered "overweight". Now I look at the photo's and wonder...WTF was I thinking??? Girl, you had it...No one loved me more, I was still the same person just in a smaller package...I could wear anything I wanted...but jeans and a T have always been my forte'...I did land "the job" that I now regret taking because it took me away from the people I love...BUT I did not magically change. I lost the weight but I hadn't lost the habits...When my very best girl friend died of pancreatic cancer suddenly I found solace eating with friends...When I got the job and had no time I ate whatever was fast and easy...These things don't help you have a healthy lifestyle. I now am dealing with Oprah's "40 lbs". Thank's be to God I didn't regain all 140!!! Now I'm eating mindfully, exercising when and where I can (last night it was dancing with my bff and today twirling my son around) and realizing that even though the numbers aren't going down as fast as I'd hoped they will if I keep on, keeping on!

Just another two cents worth...

Hollywood

I was watching something on TNT today and Jewel was on there singing. So? nothing special, till I noticed her teeth. They aren't perfect!!! Wow! Then I got to thinking...I was just watching one of those "Inside"programs on the network where they were going over everyone's perfect dresses from the Globes...and they had on there about Kate Winslet...I love this woman. Anyway, she was on Oprah and Oprah thanked her for having "real boobs". She's so right you know...Real boobs!!! Kate made a reference to how boobs take sanctuary in armpits. Mine do that, have done that forever!!!

Have hope my friends, there are some real people in Hollywood!!!

Part of the gain...

Ugh, after a wonderful evening out with my BFF dancing and sticking to only 3 MGD 64's (that's an NSV) I woke up way to early for being out till 2:30. When I did my morning dash to the potty...I discovered that my dear aunt has payed me a visit. You can't set any clocks to mine...I can go for months without one...go figure. So I never really know when she's a coming...So I'm not getting down about that scale as I'm sure at least a little is due to this lovely work of mother nature.

I shoveled for 2 hours this morning as well and went sled riding down the hill out back, so I'm thinking that's good exercise! I worked up a sweat shoveling let me tell you.

And now that I've grossed you out with all this talk about TOM and sweat...I leave you with a thought for the day....Woman without snow pants get very wet bum...